I was looking at the TV guide for tonight online and immediately my eyes fell on this:

Turn Me On: The History of the Vibrator

This program explores the history of the vibrator. Through a group of sexpert characters, the documentary uncovers the socially camouflaged sex toy - hidden in the underwear drawer since it was invented over 120 years ago. This program reveals a social and sexual history that some people would prefer remained a secret.

Where the hell was this a month ago when I needed it!

I'm already making bets with myself that half the stuff they bring up will have been in my previous 'research'.

Also, I almost electrocuted myself and set fire to the house today with my computer cord. Then I fixed it by yelling at a fat man. That was fun.

Tags: warning: sexual references/scenes, whining
Current Mood: irritated

2 months ago my life was easy. Frustrating, but easy.

I had absolutely no ideas at all for LOM fic, and as much as I may have wanted to write, I couldn’t think of anything to write. That was until someone’s muse came over and bit me hard on the arse and now I can’t shake it off.

Years ago this wouldn’t have bothered me and I would have just churned something out, but nowadays writing for me is like pulling teeth, as much as I can’t resist it.

My usual MO would be to half finish a bunch of stories I’ll never be happy with and then leave them, along with a mass of outlines, laying around my comp until the end of time, never allowed to see the light of day.

But the thing is, I’m sick of doing that. I’m sick of being so hard on myself and not enjoying writing for what it is anymore, and ultimately giving up before anything’s done.

So, somewhat stupidly, I’ve made a promise to myself, that whatever the hell I have to go through, not matter how much I have to cry and scream, and no matter how many computers I have to break in anger, I’m going to FINISH ALL OF THE FICS I HAVE PLANNED ON MY COMP. It may take years, but I really feel like I have to do this for myself. To at least prove I can.

No matter how they turn out or how many dildos they feature.

( List of the fics for anyone who’s interested )

Tags: fic, life on mars, whining
Current Mood: busy

mikes_grrl casually mentioned to me that she needed something to laugh at at the minute, and since I’m desperately trying to find any way to distract myself from writing today, I thought, what better way to make her laugh than with the tragedy that is my romantic life? After all, she’s gotten much joy out of it before.

So in regards to that, I bring you,

( Public Service Announcement Number 2: Signs That A Relationship Is Going Nowhere  )

Tags: public service announcement, warning: salty language, warning: sexual references/scenes, whining
Current Mood: nostalgic

(  On dating people you meet in shops. Specifically the shops you like. )

Tags: warning: sexual references/scenes, whining
Current Mood: ditzy

( A comprehensive list of things that are going wrong in my life )

Tags: whining
Current Mood: gloomy

Title: A Case Of The Hysterics or The One With All The Run-On Sentences
Author: adelphi23
Word Count: 5,300. I don’t know how that happened.
Pairing: Sam/Gene
Summary: Gene’s a big tease and Sam’s getting desperate. It all leads to a certain shop, where Sam purchases a certain item, and certain fairly predictable events occur.
Rating: Brown Cortina. The sex is pretty graphic and there’s some kink. Warning or enticement? You choose.
Notes/Excuses: Someone, who shall remain nameless, suggested that a way for me to break my writers block might be to just write and post something regardless of how bad it is and just feel the fear. I’m the suggestible type, so I stupidly took this advice. I wrote this almost as a stream of consciousness - I didn’t plan, I didn’t do huge rewrites, I didn’t over think plot or characterisation (clearly,) I just typed it, checked the grammar and here it is. As such I do think it has some big problems, the least of which being the characterisation and big old clichés everywhere. But I need to find someway of getting back to writing regularly again, so I’m trying this, fruitless or fruity as it may turn out to be.


( A Case Of The Hysterics )

Tags: fic, life on mars, nc-17, one shots, sam/gene, warning: salty language, warning: sexual references/scenes
Current Mood: bouncy

( I say the word ‘dildo’ a lot under here )

Tags: warning: salty language, warning: sexual references/scenes, whining
Current Mood: contemplative

Okay, I thought I'd start a new journal for my brand spankin’ new Life On Mars obsession.  

Like I said it's new, so I don’t know who's reading this now... s'just like I'm talking to myself... which is embarrassing so, ok then.

Current Mood: apathetic